Jesus, how the heck is it Friday again? I feel like I just listened to my Monday morning Bill Burr podcast and blinked, now we are here! The past couple of months have actually been quite the blur for me. We have been staying with family and finally get to move into our own home next week!! I wanted to wait until everything was final before I even talked about it. We've gone through a lot and are so grateful to have such a supportive family always there for us and willing to help in a second. 

Chris found a great job that he loves. Yes, he's one of those people that actually loves what he does and is always working on his own time at home because he loves it so much. He's into finance and investing so he's a numbers guy. Literally makes a spreadsheet for everything

The kids are good. Still as psycho as ever ;) Kidding. 

I know I haven't updated you all in a while, but my head has been elsewhere. I'll admit I've gone through a blogging rut. Trying to find out what to do next and constantly second guessing myself. I think I need to start taking more time for myself. Just to breath, you know? I love my kids and I'm so damn grateful I get to stay home with them and watch them grow. I get to experience all of the "firsts" with them. Every new face Kai makes and Madelyn's personality is constantly changing along with learning so many new things everyday. I can't imagine how hard it is for all of the mothers that leave their children everyday for work. You are stronger than I am!! 

It's also a bit frustrating when I have ideas and things I want to do but someone is either hungry, needs a nap, or pissed off. I'm proud of what I have accomplished amidst this beautiful chaos. 

It's so easy to see peoples lives on social media and start the comparison spiral. You think you know someone based on their Instagram. Hell, even their snapchat, but you truly have no idea what each person is going through. What they are hiding. I have to remind myself of this from time to time. Not to get caught up. You know? When your work is highly integrated within social media its common to have those thoughts and struggles. Sometimes I feel like I can't turn it off.

The way I get through life is doing what I love. Even if it's only for two days on the weekends when I can shoot outfits with Chris. I love my blog so much. I push through the hard days when everything feels wrong, because this blog is what gives me life! 

Do I know where I'm going with this? No. Shit, I have no idea what I just typed above. ha ha! I just felt compelled to write this morning. Kai is biting my knee and Madelyn just came up to me and said "poo poo".  I think thats my cue to leave!

Anyways, I'm so grateful for all of you. 

Have a great weekend!!