As you can certainly see, Madelyn has quickly become my best friend. I don't know what I would do without her by my side every day.
I'm in a rut right now. A creative rut. I've never really opened up too much to you all. I always felt people would think I'm weird, crazy, but I am weird and crazy.. ha. Anyways, I'll share with you what's really going on I'm my life right now. Why the lack of posting. Why the lack of presence on social media.
I live in Myrtle Beach, South Carolina. My family and friends live very far from here. There are many people who live without their family and friends close by and are perfectly happy and go on with life, I'm not exactly like that. I grew up around a huge, loving family who are also my support system. Right now, life is challenging. I'm angry that I have a million ideas running through my head and can not physically bring them to life...
I just want to say "Thank You" to all of you following me and supporting my journey. You really have no idea how much it means to me.
I couldn't possibly describe the amount of joy it brings me to see purchases made from my links. All of my hard work, paying off. I work my butt off. I really do. I'm not going to pretend that I don't make money from my blog. If you ask me where something is from, what brand it is, I'll tell you. Don't want to click on my links? More power to you. Free country!
I blog because I love Fashion. It consumes my brain. I'm constantly thinking of new ideas.
Regardless of what some people say or think, there is a huge amount of work that goes into blogging. It's not all shits and giggles. Yes, I am doing what I absolutely love and adore and I am SO incredibly grateful for that. I am. Sometimes I'm so grateful, I feel as if I am in a dream!
Some days are easier than others. Babies have off days. I have a lot of off days. Working from home is so hard when you are also a full-time, stay-at-home mom. 99% of the time my to-do list is never accomplished. I'm lucky if I can brush my teeth some days.
Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't trade being a mother to Madelyn for all of the money in the world. I will say this isn't easy, and I don't want my blog/business to come off as a joke or that it's easy and I'm just a silly stay-at-home mother who takes photos of herself all day. (ew)
I'm crazy, I'm weird, I'm afraid of the dark, I worry so much about everything in life now that I have Maddy that I get headaches, I get sad, I get frustrated, I get down on myself. I have Crohn's. I have psoriasis. Life isn't always as pretty as those photos you look at.
I have a man that loves me for who I am. Always has. He was there for me when I thought there was nothing left, on my darkest days when I was so sick I couldn't move. He has always been there.
I have a family who is always there to support and love me. I have a mother who has shown me exactly what I want to be for Maddy.
Never change who you are. Never question who you are. Be you.
As much as you think people have it together by what their photos portray, you are highly mistaken. Remember that next time you are looking at a bloggers Instagram profile/blog thinking they have such an amazing, perfect life. There are many things hidden behind those photos. That person chooses to only show the good, instead of the bad.
I used to get myself SO DOWN by thinking that way.
You have to be thankful for what God has blessed you with, and be happy for others. I'm working on that everyday.
I'm working on becoming a role model to my daughter. I want to teach her that in life you can be whoever you want to be. Nobody can stop your happiness or dreams. I want to teach her to be a strong, independent woman. I want her to have a pure heart, who sees the best in every situation, a heart that forgives the worst, and a soul that never loses faith in God.
This post is a big jumbled mess, but that's life. I'm embracing it.
I hope you all have an amazing day/week and I hope to be posting more. Bear with me.